Friday, August 5, 2011

Regret

Hello im leah and like most everyone else i have a regret i need to get of my chest. Starting small i regret lieing to my friend that the notes she was helping with worent on a test she is a good person with great values and hates cheating i used her to pass my test because i wasent ready for it when school starts im going to tell her i wish to be strong enough to tell her socontly i regret helping bully a beautiful human being her name was catlin she was great and smart and loving and i was lost i followed a girl i called my friend and she was mean i knew it and i stilled followed her im not a horrable person but iv thought of this moment every day of my life tryinf to find and contact her one thing that i did to her is angle and i called her to tell her there was a party at the park she was dressed up and everything we and a naboor boy was here we laught at her and she stormed off home and intill i mitured did i relize what iv done...but what herts even most is that she and i were alone and she said to me i know your not mean its angle who is i forgive you. She truely was the best human being and i hope she lives a live of love and forgivness. The worst and formost regret i myself have is hard to say but i was still imature and dident know what i truely have...my mom past away suddenly she stop breathing in her sleep 4 hours before going to sleep she had toldme good night i love you and i said back good night......i forgot to say i love you .........i never knew how muched i loved her before she past had a new teen i blamed her for being poor and for being around drugs (only pot but when ur young it seem hipacritical) i was wrong a little while before she past i had wished for her to die...so i could go away to my granmas house who was very well indowed in her finace and i knew i could be sucssesful there i told myself i wouldent cry at her funeral i did like a baby who had lost her bib i regret wishing such an awful thing theres no way for myself to feel free and now i relize she loves me and that she wishes no regret for me so i move on...But i still remeber that broken night when everyones life chaged i loved my mom so much i was 11 when it happend i was a ingorant teen and now im 15 i am greatful for every thing i have in life to the point of tears jsut know that loveing your family and friends is the best but scretly hateing that is hell be greatful my friends.